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Confessions of a Sick Servant - Lazarus

Jesus, my Friend,

I know you can't hear me right now, but I wish you were here. I am so very sick. I've never felt this way before. I feel like I am fading. It all happened so quickly. I am still trying to make sense of it all. One moment I was out in the fields, working hard and feeling strong. The next minute I felt horrible. We've tried everything, but I am growing weaker and weaker.

We have tried everything, cupping, blood-letting, and all the tinctures and solutions the village has. Even the old woman in the town gave me some potions to drink, but nothing has helped.

I'm not asking for healing just for myself. People need me. With each passing hour, I worry more. I'm already so behind on my work, but now I lay here wondering what will happen to my family? Who will take care of Mary and Martha? They need me. Mary might go back to unspeakable things to survive. I can't even stomach that.

I know I should have thought of you first. I'm worried it's too late now. Why don't you come? Why don't you heal me? I know you could. I've seen you heal others. What about me?

Your Sick Servant

My dear Lazarus,

I hear your cry for help, and it breaks my heart. Though there is trouble and sorrow in this life, I am right there with you through every moment. It isn't what I want for you, and sickness is never what I intended for the world when I created it. You are not alone, even in the night when the pain is the worst and sleep evades you. Stretch your hand out to me. I've got you. Do not fear. I am here. Don't be shocked. I will strengthen you and help you.

I know you are a hard worker. I was the one who set up all that work for you to do. You help and give so much. I see every small gesture you do to bless others. My promise to you is to preserve your life. I have taken up your pain and bore your suffering. I will never leave you behind or ever forget about you. I have laid down my life for you.

Though sorrow may last for a night, there is great joy in the morning. I have already seen it. Even if you have to walk through death, I will never leave you. Trust me. I promise rest to all those who are weary and heavy-burdened. You are safe in my hands.

Your Heavenly Father