Surviving TraumaChikamu

As mentioned on day one, we were conditioned to push through the fear and trauma we faced. We had to be prepared for any mission at any time; search, rescue, MEDEVAC, body recovery, special warfare support (CSAR), antisubmarine warfare (ASW), small surface combatant (SSC), etc. The collection of chaos became the norm, and we were able to operate at an insanely elevated intensity level. This allowed us to do well at our job but could only last for so long. Everyone is wired uniquely and handles short and long-term stress differently. Some may have mental and emotional issues in the form of PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder), while others may not be affected as much in the short or long-term.

Decades after being honorably discharged from the Navy, I am still affected by the trauma I faced and the loss of life I experienced. I’ve had more time to reflect on the past and how those moments impacted my life. And as I continue to lose veterans I served with or those in the Aviation Rescue Swimmer community, my PTSD symptoms can be triggered by secondary trauma.

King David experienced all the symptoms of depression throughout Psalm 102 due to his unconfessed sins. He felt physically broken and lost his purpose for life. He couldn’t eat, or sleep, he felt isolated and was constantly weeping. “My days are consumed like smoke, and my bones are burned like a hearth. My heart is stricken and withered like grass” (Psalm 102:3-4).

Depression can come without warning or slowly creep into your life. Where the other responses to trauma (irritability, anxiety, insomnia, nightmares, etc.) may feel more active, depression can feel like a quiet or isolated time. It can be paralyzing, where you can’t perform basic functions. It’s vital to talk to a professional therapist and faith-based support groups to help get you beyond this difficult period. The military teaches us to power through difficult times, but there are circumstances that are beyond our ability.

Matthew 11:28 reminds us to not take on the world by ourselves. God is here for us. He wants us to seek Him in all circumstances and release our heavy burdens to Him. He provides us with rest. He provides us with love. He provides us with healing. He provides us with peace. We just need to let Him in.

Daily Journal

Write down times you’ve dealt with depression or the symptoms of depression. Maybe you’ve learned to cope with it or cover it up throughout your life. If you’re dealing with past trauma, invite the Holy Spirit in. Allow Him to take over and guide you toward healing. Be encouraged to seek professional help to work through these difficult areas in your life.

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