Binge Free God's WaySample

Starting Over

Day 2

My husband showed me a Facebook memory that popped up on his phone from eight years ago. We were on our honeymoon and I was holding a big, juicy hamburger. My first thought was, "Wow, I used to be 40 pounds lighter." Then I remembered that I wasn’t healthy. I was struggling with my eating disorder and had not even started healing from my trauma.

As you read this devotion, you may be thinking, here we go again. No one likes the feeling of having to start over, let alone being reminded how many times you failed in the past.

But what if this time you choose to trust in the Lord and not your own strength? What if you surrender the outcome to God? That doesn’t mean you are giving up or aren’t ready to tackle your health journey. It means this time you are ready to make a lifestyle change that is sustainable.

After reading all the diet books and trying all the weight loss programs, I have learned that this time I have to do what works for me. That does not include allowing myself to binge eat or obsess about numbers.

Today you have a choice to start over or stay in a pattern of feeling miserable and stuck. I truly understand the anger and shame that comes with this battle, wishing it would just go away, but having to get real and face it head on. Why can’t I just be like everyone else and eat normally? Why do I have to wrestle with my weight?

Many days I stayed isolated in my home, not wanting to go anywhere because I didn’t feel well or none of my clothes fitted. I wasted so many years of my life, years that should have been spent enjoying time with my children. I was left pondering how can I make this change and where do I even start?

This time I need to stay committed and trust the process. I need to surrender to God and let Him be my strength, but I also need to focus on something long term that I can do for the rest of my life. No more quick fixes or trying to do what everyone else is doing. This time I need to get honest with myself and make changes that will become a new healthy lifestyle for me.

Daily Affirmation

One day at a time. One meal at a time. One prayer at a time.

Action Step

What is one small change you can start working on today to become a healthier version of yourself?

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