I Stayed: Healing Past Hurt, Betrayal & InfidelitySample

God Didn’t Do It

Why God? Why did you do this to me? I found myself asking these questions as I stared at my reflection in the mirror. I was staring at a woman who was confident in who she was but wasn’t confident in what she was experiencing.

In difficult times like this, you might find yourself blaming God for what transpired. “Why didn’t you stop my husband from doing what he did?” you might find yourself asking God. Let me assure you that God did not make your husband do the things he did. Just like God gives us the choice to follow Him, He also gives us the free will to make our own decisions.

For example, in 2 Samuel 11 God did not make David sleep with Bathsheba, Uriah’s wife. Nor did He take away David’s free will before he decided to commit adultery. The same goes for your husband.

God still loves and cares for you and still wants the best for you. Do not allow this situation to cause you to lose faith in Him. Yes, this season is unfair, but put your trust back in Him. He still has your back, and He orders your steps. Even when it doesn’t seem like it, He is holding your hand. You are not alone.

Read and meditate on today’s scriptures and spend time journaling your thoughts and feelings. Conclude your thoughts with a life statement where you speak life to your situation. For example, "Today I’m feeling broken, but I will not always feel this way."

Keep fighting. You will grow, you will overcome, and you will heal past hurt, betrayal, and infidelity.