Holding on When You Want to Let GoSýnishorn

Day Two

Looking for a Lifeline

Scripture: Psalm 27:13-14; Hebrews 6:19

One of the greatest challenges to holding on when life feels out of control is knowing that if God wanted to change our circumstances, He could. So why would we hold on to the One who could help us if He doesn’t? What do you do when you believe that God is good, that God is in control, but nothing makes sense to you anymore?

When the COVID pandemic first hit in spring 2020, I felt myself spiraling downward. All the things I’d learned to help me cope with depression over the years weren’t working. I didn’t know how to pull myself out of the pit. Some days I just stayed in bed.

As my despair grew, it brought me to my knees. I began to dive in to the Bible as if my life depended on it, because it did. I needed to understand the bigger picture of the story God is writing.

Day after day, week after week, I sat out on our balcony with my Bible and a notebook and pencil and asked the Holy Spirit to help me see what I might miss. And He did. The stories were right there in the pages, story after story of people who loved God but felt as if their lives were out of control. But God was with them, every moment, every day. Not only that, but as I studied, I saw that Jesus was there. He is there from the first chapter of Genesis until the final chapter of Revelation. It’s always been about Jesus. There has always been a plan. He has always been writing our stories. 

The Scripture passage that had been a lifeline for me so many years before became a lifeline again: 

Yet I am confident I will see the Lord’s goodness while I am here in the land of the living. 

Wait patiently for the Lord.

Be brave and courageous.

Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.

—Psalm 27:13–14

So I hold on. Will you hold on too? 

Father God, when my life feels out of control, I choose to hold on to You. Amen.