"Trying Again" After Miscarriage & Pregnancy Lossনমুনা

Day IV: Faith Of A Mustard Seed

A couple of days after my tough conversation with my husband, I was scrolling through social media and saw an image that showed the size of a mustard seed. In the caption, it had written, "All it takes."

This image and caption are based on the scripture:

Matthew 17: 20 "You don't have enough faith," Jesus told them. "I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it would move. Nothing would be impossible."

At that moment, I realized I didn't have to have this immense, all-having, all-knowing, mountain-size faith in God about my concern. He only needed a mustard seed. This did wonders for me. It took the weight off my shoulder to feel I had to have immense faith in having a healthy pregnancy and child. It helped me to realize it was okay; I was scared. It was okay; I was upset. It was okay; I was struggling. However, if there is even a tiny amount of faith that God can do it and that He would do it for me, it will happen, and it is possible. I felt relief knowing this and being reminded of His compassion toward us.

He knows we struggle. He knows we are fearful sometimes. He gets it. But, all He asks is for the faith of a mustard seed. Just because you haven't seen it before doesn't mean you will never see it. I realize now I can't trust what I've seen. I can't trust what has happened in the past. I can't even trust what happens next. I have to remember that faith believes without seeing. That's what faith is all about.

Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see."

So, don't feel overwhelmed. Don't feel bad you are struggling. All He is asking for is the faith of a mustard seed.

Can you do that?

Reflection: Do you have a tiny mustard seed of faith that God will answer your prayer? If you don't, how can you get to a place of faith in God's goodness and faithfulness? What would it take?