Conversations With God: After Miscarriage & Pregnancy Lossনমুনা

Day II: Unpredictable & Confused

When I lost my son, I was confused about who God was and questioned His character and nature. I would never say He is cruel because I didn't believe that. I truly felt God loved me and had the best intentions in mind for me. But, in that moment of loss, I wasn't sure about a couple of things. If He is loving, why did He allow me to lose my child? Why didn't He stop me from birthing Solomon if He was in control? I always felt I knew exactly who God was and what He could do. But I wasn't so sure anymore.

When something happens unexpectedly or differs from what we believe or ask for, we question God and His ways. Losing a child can bring up feelings and thoughts of doubt, fear, disbelief, and shock—suspicion of His control. Fear we don't know who He is anymore. Confused about why He would allow this to happen, shocked that it happened.

How do you feel about God since you have lost your child?

What emotions or thoughts are you struggling with about God?

Don't feel condemned or judged for any feelings you have right now. God is aware you are hurt. There were times in the Bible when prominent figures questioned God. It's okay, and it's normal. Talk to Him.