Imithandazo EyingoziIsampula

Ukudalula Ukwesaba Kwami

Yini ekwenza ukhathazeke? Uthukile? Awuzinzile? Uyesaba?

Angikhulumi ngokwesaba kwangaphandle okujwayelekile njengezinyoka, izicabucabu, noma ukwesaba ukundiza. Ngiyazibuza ukuthi yini ekugcina ungalalanga ebusuku, lezo zinto ezicubungula engqondweni yakho futhi zenqabe ukuthula. Izinto ezifana nokuphelelwa ngumsebenzi. Ukungashadi. Noma ukunamathela emshadweni omubi. Ukuba nempilo yakho yehluleka. Kumunca i-akhawunti yakho yokonga ukuze uthole imali.

Asazi ukuthi yikuphi ukwesaba okwakukhona emqondweni kaDavid, kodwa kuyacaca ukuthi wayekhathazekile ngokuphepha kwakhe futhi mhlawumbe nekusasa lakhe. Ngoba ngemuva kokucela uNkulunkulu ukuba ahlole inhliziyo yakhe, uDavida wathandaza, "yazi imicabango yami ekhathazayo" (Ihu. 139: 23). Wayefuna ukutshela uNkulunkulu ukwesaba kwakhe okubi kakhulu. Ukubhekana nazo bese uzinika igama. Ukuthemba ukuthi uNkulunkulu mkhulu kunanoma ikuphi ukwesaba uDavid angakuphupha.

Uzimisele ukuthandaza umthandazo onje? “Nkosi, veza ukuthi yini ebambe umqondo wami. Ngikhombise engikusaba kakhulu. Qhubeka, ungisize ngibhekane nokungengethusayo. ”

Lokho esikwesabayo kubalulekile.

Eminyakeni edlule, nganginesambulo ngale ndaba esingithinta ngendlela engiyithandayo. Unkulunkulu wangikhombisa ukuthi engikwesaba kakhulu kuvezwe lapho ngithemba khona uNkulunkulu okuncane. Ngemuva kokuzalwa kwendodakazi yethu yesithathu, u-Anna, u-Amy waqala ukuba nezinselele zomzimba. Ekuqaleni, besicabanga ukuthi ukukhathala nje, kepha lapho uhhafu womzimba wakhe uba ndikindiki, besaba ukuthi kuyinto ebi kakhulu. Udokotela ngemuva kukadokotela akakwazanga ukunikeza izimpendulo. Lapho izimpawu zakhe ziqhubeka nokuba zimbi, ukuthembela kwami ​​kuNkulunkulu kwaqala ukuncipha.

Lokhu kwesaba kwaholela kwabanye, futhi ebusuku imicabango yami yaba neqhwa engalawuleki.Kuthiwani uma u-Amy egula ngendlela eyingozi? Kuthiwani uma ngilahlekelwa nguye? Ngeke ngikwazi ukukhulisa izingane zethu ngaphandle kwakhe. Bengingeke ngikwazi ukuqhubeka nokuhola ibandla. Ngeke ngifune ukuqhubeka.Bese kungishaya. Izinto ezazingigcina ngiphapheme ebusuku kwakuyizinto ebengingathembi ukuthi uNkulunkulu uzosingatha. Bengibambelele kubo, ngibakhanyisela, ngizama ukuthola indlela yokuthola amandla phezu kwabo, ukuxazulula zonke izinkinga zami, ukuhlela zonke izehlakalo. Ngokujabulisayo, ngomusa kaNkulunkulu, u-Amy wathuthuka kancane kancane wabuyela emandleni, kepha izinselelo zakhe zembula obunye bobuthakathaka bami obukhulu. Ukwesaba kwakungidlile.

Kuthiwani ngawe? Yiziphi izindawo onamathele kuzo ngenkathi uzivumela ukuthi zikwesabise? Yikuphi ukwesaba okugodlela uNkulunkulu?

Cabanga ngakho. Uma ubanjwe ukwesaba ngekusasa lomshado wakho, lokhu kuyinkomba yokuthi awumethembi ngokuphelele uNkulunkulu ngomshado wakho. Uma ukhathazwa ukukhathazeka ngokuthi uzozikhokha kanjani izindleko zakho, lokhu kuveza ukuthi ungahle ungathembi ukuthi uNkulunkulu uzokuhlinzeka. Uma ukhubazekile ngokukhathazeka ngokuphepha kwezingane zakho, kungenzeka yini ukuthi awuthembi uNkulunkulu ukuthi azigcine ziphephile?

Njengoba uNkulunkulu embula ukwesaba kwakho, uzokwakha nokholo lwakho. Uyamdinga. Udinga ubukhona bakhe. Udinga amandla akhe. Udinga uMoya wakhe ukukuqondisa. Udinga iZwi lakhe likuqinise.

Okwesaba kakhulu kukukhombisa lapho udinga ukukhula khona noNkulunkulu. Yini oyesabayo? Iyini imicabango yakho ekhathazayo?

Yini uNkulunkulu akubonisa yona?

Udinga kuphi ukukhula okholweni?

Mthembe.