Confessions of a secret sinner (1)

Inspirational speaker and author Julie Ann Barnhill writes: ‘I tend to be a stealthy sinner – a cloistered screw-up. For most of my life, I’ve managed to fly under the radar…to keep 99.9 percent of such things hidden. As someone who attended church and appeared to manage a happy family, I avoided glaring attention to the shadow side of my life – but at great cost. Lying about my spending led to financial problems in my marriage. Covetousness robbed me of friendships and contentment. The teenage anger that sent me reeling in fits of self-mutilation exploded years later in outbursts of abusive anger towards my children. And when alcohol beckoned during periods of loneliness and depression, I heeded its call. Maybe you’re thinking, “So, you’ve told us a few secrets from your life – they don’t compare to mine.” Seeing who has the most horrifying secret isn’t the point; we need to embrace the truth that we aren’t alone in our secret places…Confession for confession’s sake easily turns into tabloid moments like daytime talk shows. It’s not enough to spill the beans. Genuine confession leads to radical forgiveness that’s only available through Christ. It covers whatever we’ve done, no matter how bad it is. Jesus knows our secrets, and they can never stop Him from loving us. They can, however, create a barrier between us and the shame-free life He desires for us. We confess our sins to find redemption, rescue, and eternal life. We share our secret places with trusted friends so we might know the reality of divine healing through flesh-and-blood relationships with those we love.’

Prayer Point

Lord God, I know I try to hide things I’m ashamed of and pretend that things are okay so that others don’t think my life is anything less than perfect. But it also means I’m dealing with my struggles alone. Help me to remember that nothing is hidden from You, and You still love me. Help me share my struggles and confess my mistakes to You so that You can begin the healing process within me. Amen.

Barnhill, Julie Ann, ‘Confessions of a Perfect Christian Woman,’ accessed April 4, 2011, todayschristianwoman.