Still Faithful in Divorce

I have faced many trials and indeed had my roller coaster of ups and downs. There have been times when I doubted if God was on my side. During these times, He would send me reassurance of his faithfulness towards me. 

Divorce has such a stigma on it for women. Often, we are convinced that we won't make it. That our children will suffer and that we will never find happiness. Divorce is a storm that can destroy you, a flood that can drown you, a fire that will burn you down, but then there's God. The master of all these elements keeping you steady, afloat, and extinguished. 

As I walked through the valleys of marriage and divorce, He was there. God's faithfulness sustained me when infidelity almost took me out. I wanted to do what was right in the eyes of man and stayed in an unhealthy marriage. I didn't want to prove my family and friends right in saying I shouldn't have gotten married and that it wouldn't last, so I stayed. I stayed, and I cried, I stayed, and I was depressed, I stayed I and I was suicidal, I stayed until I couldn't stay anymore. 

I was embarrassed, felt like a failure, and completely angry, but God promised me that He would bless me for drawing on His strength and walking away from what wasn't in His plans for me. Ladies, the emotional, physical, and secret abuse is not God's plan for your life. So please don't hold yourself hostage in a marriage that God does not ordain. 

I'm a living witness that God will overturn the drama and abuse. I experienced so much trauma in marriage and divorce, but God alone helped me put away the heavy baggage of a faithless marriage in the process. It was my most significant "weight loss." Even as others judged me, He comforted me and covered me with Grace so that I would be prepared for now. 

Prayer: 

Father, thank You for protecting my mind during trying times. Please continue to give me the strength and courage to stay in your will. You know what's best for me. And even when I'm not sure, I'll look to You for Your hand to guide me through. In Jesus' name, Amen.