Always Have & Always Will

Have you ever been in a season of life that felt lonely? A season of heartbreak that felt like it may never end? I have found myself here in more ways than one and can attest that they are some of the hardest days ever, but they are even more difficult if you do not keep the reminder close to your heart that Jesus never leaves, His love never ceases, and He is faithful through it all.

When I found myself a widow at 28 years old, there were so many evenings that I cried myself to sleep because of the heartache that I felt. It often felt so lonely because every new thing was met with such sadness. It was only through His divine Word and song that I stayed grounded in truth. A friend shared Psalm 31:14 with me on a difficult, grief-filled day that stayed with me each morning—I hid it in my heart so that I could always reflect on it even when I wasn’t sure if I believed it. It says, “But I trust in you, O Lord; I say, ‘You are my God.’” It goes on to say, “My times are in your hand; rescue me from the hand of my enemies.” I read it over and over and begged God to meet me where I was. Heartbroken and lonely. And boy, did He! With clarity, He spoke “I’ve got you. I’ll never leave you. I am your God, and I am faithful.” His truth and His presence in that season of my life are exactly why I can praise Him with confidence. As I would seek Him, He would show me purpose in my life day after day. He would show Himself to me through my son, through friends, and through music so often. I am living proof that He finishes what He starts, that He is faithful, that even in the darkest night the sun rises with the morning.

Even though I may have wanted to some days, I didn’t push God away. I didn’t understand His plan or the “why” behind it all, but I knew that whatever it was, He would be faithful in my healing and faithful in my future. He will be in yours too, whatever it is that you’re facing.