Mosaiek Church Lent 2025: Jesus' Questions in SufferingSample

“Why are you sleeping?” he asked them. “Get up and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation.”

-Luke 22:46 (NLT)

An awakening and awareness of Him always brings an awakening and awareness of myself. And vice versa. Just as we can be unaware of Him (asleep), we can be unaware of our own essence and what is going on inside us. Unaware that we are created in His image, and of what we think, feel, and want deeply. Unaware that we can decide… Jesus knows who He is (John 13:3) and what is going on inside Him. He wants something different than what is now coming his way. He makes a choice. Not His will, but the Father’s will.

There are a few metaphors in the Bible that express the importance and nature of awareness of oneself. It is like being blind and then being able to see. Being dead and then living. Going from a lie to the truth. Being cut off and then becoming connected.

A big question to ask yourself is: to what extent am I aware of my deepest self, my thoughts, feelings, and desires? Can I now express in words what I really feel and long for? Gurdjieff says the fundamental human problem is that we constantly fall asleep. We all experience moments of insight and awakening but soon slip back into an unconscious state. All religious practices are aimed at helping us to wake up and live more consciously. Spiritual growth is a growing awareness of Him and of ourselves.

Reflection: Take a few moments to become present. Take a few deep breaths and exhale slowly. Close your eyes and now pay attention to your inner world. What do you notice? Before you judge anything, can you name it? A thought, a feeling, a memory, imagination, worry… Just notice it while letting it all go. Then talk to Him about it.

Prayer: I ask for the grace of a deep awareness of His presence in my life.