My Jesus by Anne WilsonSample

Five years have passed since Jacob died, and sometimes it’s still hard to believe he’s gone. During those years, I have walked through many days when I felt hopeless, yet God has brought me through each one. I often long for Jacob and remember all our beautiful memories, the lessons he taught me, and the 15 years I was blessed to have him as my big brother. I’m grateful I have the enduring hope of seeing him again in heaven. Sometimes it feels like it will be forever until that day comes, when really, forever is what I will get to spend with Jacob.

When I think back to my darkest days of grief and reflect on all God has done since that time, His faithfulness is the consistent thread I see woven through it all. From the first moment He asked me to trust Him until now, I have seen His hand in my life. He has upheld me in my most painful moments and has fulfilled His promise to bring good out of every situation—even losing Jacob.

God has provided what I exactly need at every turn and has been my constant help and comfort. He has calmed the fears in my heart with His love and shown me how to find joy even in unimaginable loss. His Word has been “a lamp to my feet” (Psalm 119:105 NKJV), and He has shown me each next step I am to walk. I trust Him for the future, whatever it holds. I’m excited to see what He has in store. The journey into a music career singing His praises has already been more than I could have dreamed, and I know He’s not finished. There are good days ahead.

Sometimes I can’t believe God chose me for this great honor—offering the hope He’s given me to thousands of others. It’s incredible. My greatest hope is the forever future I have with Christ. I pray that every day, as I walk with Him and tell the world how good He is, I bring a smile to His face. For I am His, and He is mine. He is my Jesus.

Prayer

Lord, I am so thankful that I have You in my heart. Thank You for giving me hope and a purpose, and please help me share Your love with others. Amen.