Infertility Encouragement from Sarah's LaughterSample

Peering Into Limousines

I admit it: I’m nosy. My husband says I get “a look” when I eavesdrop on people in public. It drives me to distraction when I get a glimpse of a thing but can’t see all of it. For example: limousines with darkened windows. I know there has to be someone interesting inside—probably a famous celebrity; I just can’t see them. I speed up or slow down to get a peek, but no matter how hard I strain to see what this glamorous vehicle carries, I cannot see through the darkened glass.

Kind of like infertility.

It would be so much easier to live under the weight of infertility if we knew why. Why does God allow my heart to be ripped apart every time I see someone else with a pregnant belly or spit-up stains on their shoulder? Why do so many of my friends have baby showers while I have appointments with fertility specialists? Why can’t I see His hand in my life? Why can’t I see His plan?

For now we see through a glass, darkly. It’s easy to assume that the vehicle of our lives is empty—with no great treasure inside. We have only a glimpse, only part of the story. We know that at least for a time we cannot conceive. We know we beg and plead for a baby, still God’s silent answer of “no” thunders in our ears.

God knows it’s hard to see only part of His plan. He knows it’s tough to merely eavesdrop on heavenly conversations when you’d rather hear God’s every word about your life. But hang on! We know in part for now, but one day we will know fully.

If we knew every aspect of God’s plan, would faith be necessary? Or trust? If we knew fully now, would we still peer into the Scriptures, or listen for the voice of God? If you knew everything that was going to happen, would you still pray?

One day, you’ll know fully. Until then, keep eavesdropping on Heaven’s conversations. Peer into the darkened windows. Know that one day, the window will roll down. You’ll finally see the treasure God placed inside of your life through the vehicle of infertility.