A Higher Callingनमुना

When Doubt Creeps In

As we continued our long-planned journey, I (Harold) downplayed my fears and nerves when I talked with Rachel. I told her things like “It’s not too scary” and “It’s really pretty” and “I’m not too worried about it.” Those were half-truths. In reality, that towering beast in front of us was the meanest, blackest thing I’d ever seen. I was worried, and I was humbled. I could share this with her, my best friend and biggest supporter. But I wanted to protect her from the knot in my stomach, the nerves constantly rumbling inside, and the nagging questions: What am I doing? and What have I left behind? 

Have you ever come to a point in your life when the one thing you’ve been working toward suddenly seems insurmountable? A moment when your own personal Everest (be it creating a business, parenting, seeking healing from your past, or something else) stares you down, looking bigger and scarier than you ever could have imagined? A time when you feel intimidated and alone? A time in which you suddenly begin to question everything?

That’s what I was doing in Tibet, asking over and over again, Have I bitten off more than I can chew?

I know life sometimes presents moments that feel impossible. But I also know when you overcome these challenges, you come out with an even greater faith. 

The Bible tells us, “Nothing is impossible with God” (Luke 1:37). Nothing! If you’re facing doubts right now about the Everest in front of you, spend some time studying God’s character. Write down words that the Bible uses to describe Him. I guarantee when you look up at that mountain again, it will seem small compared to the God who never leaves you.