My Cancer. God's Grace. His Glory.Sýnishorn

The Lord in His grace had taught me to trust Him, His love, and His POWER even in a moment like this. He had broken a stronghold of fear in my heart that had been there since childhood.

When I was in the first grade, my father was diagnosed with cancer. I remember one moment as if it were yesterday. We were pulling into the garage after picking my father up from the hospital. He had white bandages wrapped around his head. My mom said “Your dad nearly died. We are blessed to have him with us.”

The doctors had not expected my father to survive the surgery. He did, however, but there was a dark cloud that hovered over him—a fear went with him throughout the remainder of his life, and with that fear an increase in alcohol consumption which wreaked havoc in his life and in our family.

I developed an underlying fear that something bad was going to happen which continued into my adulthood.

Now, something bad was happening, yet I had no fear. Instead, I was filled with hope and anticipation. The Lord gave me His grace to believe His Word and gave me the power I needed to obey His Word. Romans 15:13: "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope."

While believing that God would care for me, I was filled with hope. I knew that I wouldn’t be walking this alone. I knew He was with me right in the dressing room and would be with me all along the way. I knew that He was my shepherd and that there was nothing that I would need that He wouldn't PROVIDE. By His grace, He made a way for me to lie down in green pastures, and rest beside still waters in the midst of great trial and uncertainty. He guided me in the paths of righteousness for the sake of His name. Even though I was walking through the valley of the shadow of death, I didn't fear any evil! He was with me! His rod and staff comforted me. And 2 Corinthians 9:8 came to life in a way it never had before: "God is able to make all grace abound to you so that having all sufficiency in all things, at all times, you may abound in every good work."