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Unshakeable Faith

DAY 4 OF 5

Doubting God's Existence

What is the next step I need to take in my belief?

It’s common to wonder how we can believe in a God that would let bad things happen. The Scriptures today give us many different pictures of who God is, but one thing is constant: He is a God of love and a God who calls us to care for others.

Henry sat in the second row of the sanctuary. It was 4:10 p.m. He had knocked on Pastor Jenkins’s office door, but there was no response. Henry sat, mulling over his spiritual struggle of the past few weeks—how he had dared to open up, speaking the truth about his doubting himself and others. He sat, trying to steel himself for today’s encounter; he had been thinking about it most of the week, with some fear and shame.

“Hello, Henry,” sounded a familiar voice. “I apologize for being late. I was called unexpectedly to the hospital. One of our parishioners had emergency surgery. I am sorry that I kept you waiting. Please come into my office.”

Henry found his way to the familiar overstuffed chair and waited for Pastor Jenkins to hang up his coat and sit down.

“How has your week been, Henry?”

“Better in some ways and not so good in others.”

“How better?”

“Well, studying Scripture, using the Pray, Think, Stop, Decode method you talked about gave me some direction. I kept stopping when reading about Peter. When Jesus asked, ‘Do you love me?’

I had to ask myself if I loved Jesus, or if I loved God, for that matter. Then when Jesus said, ‘Feed my lambs, feed my sheep,’ that really stopped me. I thought about that a lot, and I think I finally got what you were saying last week. Though I doubt myself, Jesus still trusts me; and though I doubt others, Jesus is challenging me to change my attitude, to stop isolating myself and to start caring for others as he cares for me.”

Pastor Jenkins was a bit stunned. “Henry, I’m not sure what to say; it sounds like you really made Peter’s story your own story.”

“Yes, well, then there is the not so good part. When Jesus asked Peter, 'Do you love me?' I thought about that a lot, too. That question troubled me.”

“What troubled you?”

“I am ashamed to say so after growing up in the church, but I don’t really think I believe God exists at all. How can you love someone who doesn’t exist?”

“Tell me more. When did you start feeling this way?”

“As I said when we first got together, I have seen a lot. In the service, I saw people who seemed to get along fine, who had good values, who were kind and understanding, hell . . . er, I mean heck, they would have died for me.”

“Yes, go on.”

“Well they didn’t believe in God and they seemed to be good people.”

“What else?”

“The children. I saw children living in poverty, dying from our own well-intended but misdirected actions. And then one of my buddies actually saw a teenager blow herself up. They said it was because she believed God would reward her. I have seen so much suffering; I can’t believe there is a God. It’s more than doubting God’s existence; it’s that I can’t believe at all.”

“Is it that you can’t, or that you won’t?”

Henry was startled by the pastor’s question. “Well how could I believe in a God that would let stuff like that happen?”

“Well, if you can’t believe in a God that would let children live in poverty, or blow themselves up, or let people suffer, what kind of God could you believe in?”

“What do you mean, what kind of God could I believe in? How many Gods are there?”

“The Scriptures portray many beliefs about the nature of God. There were those who saw God as the Creator as in the creator of the world in the book of Genesis; those who saw God as the giver of the Law as in Leviticus; those who saw God as the punitive judge as in the story of the Noah and the great flood; those who saw God as the covenant maker as in the Ten Commandments; those who saw God as the one who tests us as in the story of Job; those who saw God as the faithful lover as in the book of Hosea; those who saw God as the one to uphold justice as in the book of Amos; those who saw God as the one who sent his Son to call us to join God in attending to those in prison, the hungry, the naked, and the orphaned; those who saw God as the one who sent his Son to die for our sinfulness, and those who saw God as one who sent his Son to reveal that God also suffers in love with us rather than take revenge.

I apologize for going on so long, but I am wondering what God is it that you don’t believe in, that has caused you to doubt so much?”

“I never thought about it that way. I don’t know. I never thought about the Scriptures giving us so many different pictures of who God is. I never thought about what kind of God I believe in and what kind of God I don’t believe in.”

“Well, now that you are thinking about it, from what you have seen in the world, what kind of God don’t you believe in?”

Henry squirmed uneasily in his chair. It didn’t feel as comfortable as it had. He closed his eyes and pictured the impoverished children he had seen; he saw again his friend being shot and dying, he smelled the death of enemy combatants after battle.

“Take your time; think about it. What kind of God, after all you have seen, don’t you believe in?”

“I don’t believe in a God who would let children suffer; I don’t believe in a God who would promise some kind of reward to a teenager for blowing herself up; yet, I don’t believe in a God who protects good people from all the bad stuff that happens.”

“OK. And, Henry, I don’t believe in that kind of God either. I only have to look at what happened to Jesus to know that doing good doesn’t protect us from bad things happening to us. In fact, it often seems that doing good may lead to suffering. I guess most of us would like to think that God is going to favor us if we just believe hard enough, just have enough faith, but as I look at the lives of Jesus, the disciples, and those who have really lived the life of faith, whether Christian or otherwise, that doesn’t seem to be the case.”

“Then I don’t get it. What’s left to believe if I can’t, or as you say if I ‘won’t’ believe in a God who protects the good people and punishes the bad ones?”

“That’s a fair question, and one that is often asked. So are you willing to take another assignment of Scriptures, questions and a daily prayer?”

“You mean you aren’t going to answer my question? That isn’t right. You are the pastor; you’re the one who has devoted your life to God. You should tell me who God is.”

“Well, I will make a bargain with you. If you read the Scriptures I give you, answer the questions, and pray the daily prayer, and if you still want me to tell you who God is, I will give you my answer next week. Deal?"

“O.K.; I don’t like it, but O.K.”

“O.K.; here is the list of Scriptures, the questions, and the prayer. As you read the Scriptures, your assignment is to answer two questions:

  1. What is the person who wrote this particular scripture telling me about who they believe God is?
  2. Do I believe in this kind of God?"

Readings from the Old Testament

God is the creator of the world.

Genesis 1:1-5

God initiates a commitment with his people.

Exodus 20:1-3

Moses tells the people that there is only one true God.

Deuteronomy 6:4-5

Job, a righteous man who had been tested by God, acknowledges God’s power.

Job 42:2-6

The psalm writers speak of God’s activity in all creationGod in whom they can put their hope, knowing that he listens at all times when people call upon him in prayerGod who is always near, guiding them each day.

Psalm 8:1a,3-5

Psalm 10:17-18

Psalm 16:7-11

Psalm 90:1-2

Reading from the New Testament

Jesus teaches about what God is like.

John 17:1b-3

John 8:12b

Matthew 5:1-12

Matthew 7:7-11

Luke 12.22-31

Matthew 18:1-5

Matthew 25:31-40

Jesus tells his disciples that he will suffer and be put to death, but that he will rise to life three days later. He teaches about what it means to serve and be one of his followers.

Mark 8:31-38

Mark 10:43b-45

The apostle Paul writes about God’s abundant grace and how, through God’s love and mercy, he was brought to faith and turned his life around.

1 Timothy 1:12-14

The apostle Paul tells us how we are reconciled, or put right, with God.

Romans 3:21-24

We are assured that nothing can separate us from God’s love.

Romans 8:31b-35, 37-39

Because of God’s grace, we are saved through faith.

Ephesians 2:8-10

To know God is to know love.

1 John 4:7-10

Through Jesus Christ, our Savior, we have been given a new birth and eternal life.

Titus 3:4-8a

Thoughts for Reflection

  1. Create two columns on a piece of paper. At the top of the first column, write, “I believe in a God who . . .” and in the second column write, “I don’t believe in a God who . . .” For each column fill in as many phrases about God as you can. You may wish to reread the scriptures listed above or chose other scriptures to help you think of what to place in each column.
  2. From the phrases in your “I believe in a God who . . .” column, write a brief paragraph stating who you believe God is.

Prayer

God, I am not even sure what name to call you . . . Dear God, Lord, Savior? You know that I have been confused on what to believe and what not to believe about you.

So now I ask you to help me take my next step in believing. I can see in Scripture that so many people have seen you in so many different ways, but it seems that almost everyone sees you to be a God of love and a God who calls us to care for others. So today, help me to begin here: to understand that you love me and have called me to care for others. Amen.

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About this Plan

Unshakeable Faith

Have you ever wondered if you really matter to God? Sometimes we can question everything we once knew, doubting ourselves, others, and even our faith. When you feel overcome with confusion, you need to know there’s a God who understands and can handle anything you can throw at Him. In this plan, you will learn no doubt is too big or strong for God to help you overcome.

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