Trying Again Part II : After Miscarriage & Pregnancy Lossنموونە

What About You?

After the loss; I found myself frustrated with my body and this feeling continued when it was time for us to try again. I didn't understand why my body didn't do what it was supposed to, and I was frustrated with figuring out how to fix it. I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome), and I found I also had an incompetent cervix through my loss. The journey of PCOS is very complex. Each woman has different reasons for their PCOS, and the doctors never disclosed that to me. I had to find out for myself the cause and prayed to God to help me find a remedy. That's when I saw a natural solution. The right natural solution for me, with medication, helped assist me with getting pregnant. Then, I found out about the incompetent cervix through the loss. I was even more upset. I already had PCOS, and now this?

As my husband and I tried for a child, I immediately thought, "Here we go again." I had several meetings with doctors about a plan to get pregnant and another plan for when I get pregnant. It's a lot. In counseling, I expressed my frustrations and said one day, "I am tired of being so focused on getting my body together to have a baby. I want to take care of me."

Take care of me.

I remember being in a small group, and a woman mentioned, "I am focusing on mothering myself."

Take care of yourself too. Mother yourself.

Reflection:

Amid you trying for a child, are you taking care of yourself? How is your health? Where are you mentally? Where are you emotionally? Are you in counseling? What relaxes you? What can you do during this time to ensure you are mothering yourself?

For me:

1. I go to counseling.

2. I focus on the love me and my spouse have for each other and enjoy our time together.

3. I enjoy taking walks and also enjoy the creativity I can use at my job.

4. I ensure my mental health is intact.

5. I stay prayerful. I take time to attain peace with God and hear and feel His love over my heart.

6. I take breaks when needed.

7. I take time out to do the things I love and bring me joy.