The Final Act of Loveنموونە

Bargaining:  to try to bring to the desired level

“Please God don’t let this be a reality”. “Ok God, you can make this a huge miracle and show everyone how great you are.” These are two prayers that I repeated for at least 15 mins straight after the notification of the death of my best friend.  I recounted every story in the bible where a death ended in a miraculous resurrection. I mean, I know he had the power to do it. I had just read a book not even a month prior called, 90 Minutes in Heaven. Surely, He was the same God that reached back and grabbed others from the hands of death so He could do it again. I hoped He would. I hoped that my plans trumped His because He clearly had gotten this wrong. 

Sometimes you will hear people ask God to allow them to switch places. This is often a time when survivor's remorse surfaces. We are trying in our finite minds to comprehend an infinite plan. We are not thinking that His sovereignty had this loss woven perfectly into the tapestry of His will. I know it may not feel like it, but He does have a plan and we may be shocked, but He is not.