Waiting to Be a Momনমুনা

Isaiah 43:2 “When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.”

I’m going to be transparent: Today is a hard day. I thought there was a chance I could be pregnant, only to find out I was once again mistaken. You may be familiar with this feeling. Maybe you thought you finally found the right man, only to be disappointed. Maybe you were far along in the adoption process, and it fell through. You start to dream about what could be, then are startled awake by the harsh reality in front of you.

This is not easy, and you are allowed to grieve. If anyone in your life tells you your feelings are dramatic and unnecessary, they could not be more wrong. You do not have to keep this a secret you are allowed to grieve out loud, however, that looks to you. Is it starting a blog for your fertility journey? Is it going to a counselor? Is it starting/attending a support group? Is it painting your feelings? You can grieve how you need to, but the one thing in that grief needs to be prayer.

Our verse says that God is with us through these times, but we must lean on him. God is talking to Isreal, who is continually deciding to abandon God. He is telling them he is committed to being with His people because they are genuinely cared for. If we rely on everything but God, we will become drained because only God can fully sustain us. Other practical solutions can certainly help, but a lack of God’s presence is the missing piece in so many lives, don’t let it be yours.

Prayer: God we know we need you. We need you for healing this deep hurt. We know you are with us and can comfort us with Spirit. We pray for the Holy Spirit to come into this room and cover us with love. We love you, amen.