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Unplanned, but he had a plan

I was conceived when my biological mother was prostituting, and she had me. I was the result of that transaction. When my mother was about halfway through her trimester with me, she attempted to commit suicide, but she said that I kicked her inside her womb and that it stopped her. My mother was sex trafficked at the age of 10 years old, and as she got older, she adopted that lifestyle of her own. We were on welfare financial support and food stamps, yet it was never enough to keep food on the table and the bills paid. My mom did what she felt like she had to do. I carried shame because of the way I was brought into this world. I had made that shame my identity. I did not know who my biological father was. I saw myself dirty and less than everyone else. I felt unwanted and like I didn’t belong. I did not have a healthy relationship with my mother. I experienced physical abuse from her at the age of 5. My mother was a raging alcoholic, and I was petrified of her because I knew the physical beatings that would follow with it. I was forced to grow up fast, and I was not allowed to be a kid.

The lord wanted me to be born. He wanted YOU to be born. You were not an accident. The same God who created the universe and hung each star exactly where it is created you with intention! It wasn’t the circumstances of how we were conceived; the lord drew you out of deep waters and gave us breath that allowed us to be here, right now! Psalm 139:15 tpt “ You even formed every bone in my body when you created me in the secret place; ( Hebrew text: “the depths of the earth”) carefully, skillfully you shaped me from nothing to something” WOW! How beautiful and intentional our lord is! We were his Yesterday, today, tomorrow, and FOREVER! When we accept Jesus Christ as our savior, we are given a NEW identity in him.

2 Corinthians 5:17 says that ALL that is related to the old has vanished, and now everything is fresh and NEW! Shame is replaced with grace and acceptance. It’s time to put down the old and pick up the new!

Friends, it is time to stop letting the past and circumstances define who we are and let God tell us who we are!