When Strivings Ceaseনমুনা

My six sons are a daily reminder to me that God does the impossible and changes hearts. They are more than I deserve, and I’m so proud to be their mama. But sometimes, I think God gave me this gaggle of boys to keep me humble, to show me my weaknesses, and to illustrate in very tangible ways how God desires obedience and good works in the life of a believer.

As a mom, I’m constantly in pursuit of answers to questions like: How do I help these boys change? How do I teach them to think wisely, turn from wrong, and make right choices? If I’m honest, I want the transformation process to be swift, immediate, and one-and-done. I’m pretty much an expert at barking out orders while demanding unquestioning compliance. (Anyone else?) At my worst, I can embody a kind of parenting that only looks to measurables—good works, good grades, good choices, good attitudes. A kind of parenting that rules with rules. Left to myself, I’d be naturally prone to seek results even at the expense of a relationship. But, God is just the opposite, which is why I apparently need these daily reminders of how much I need Jesus.

God doesn’t demand obedience and good fruit apart from relationship. He desires our obedience as a result of our relationship with him. He’s after our hearts. Even all the way back in the garden, God gave his instructions to Adam and Eve within the intimacy of a relationship. A choice to follow his instructions didn’t earn them God’s presence—they already walked with God—but their choice to disobey cost them their unhindered fellowship with him in the garden. That very separation is why Jesus had to restore what was lost, and the reason why we can once again obey in response to his favor rather than obey to achieve his favor. God’s rules are always set within the context of his desire for us to know him and his heart for us as a good Father.

Prayer

Father, please forgive me for my disobedience and for striving to please myself and others rather than you. Thank you for restoring me and bringing me close to you, and thank you for desiring a relationship with me. Amen.