My Father,
What shall I do—what can I do?
How can I peel myself from this dark place?
How can I put down this monster that has laid roots within me?
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Why do you not help me?
Why is there no escape?
Why have you allowed this weight to come upon my mind?
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It seems like you have abandoned me in this situation.
Yet, I know that you can use anything for your glory.
I know that you use these moments to teach.
In the darkest moments, I know you are always with me.
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Help me, O Lord!
Rescue me from this inner beast!
Satisfy my soul, Father.
Holy Spirit, fill me and renew me.
You are my only hope and salvation, Jesus.
You are my King.
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In these moments and every other, I surrender to you.
Let me be yours and root out the evil within me.
Help me, I confess all to you.
Make me new, break me and use me.
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May the Name of Jesus Christ be glorified in me.
Amen.